It has been three weeks since I have started. I am down ten pounds. I do not feel great. It is not because of the program it is because of my view. Let me unpack this a bit. I feel like I need to do some unpacking. So I will use this blog to do so. I feel like a failure. In reality I am not a failure but I feel like one. WHY? I want to be perfect. I am not perfect. I feel guilt but that will stop me if I let it. I choose not to let it get to me. I will pick up again right where I am and move forward.
What am I losing weight for:
I have two weddings coming up the next couple weekends. I am dreading them to a point because of my weight. These are just 2 of a hundred weddings ahead of me. I am working hard now so I can enjoy the rest of the weddings in my future.
I am losing weight so I can feel more like myself
I am losing weight so I can put myself out there to date. At this point I just want to hide myself at this weight.
I want to feel confident doing whatever I am doing like a pool party or things in the summertime and not worry about my weight and how I look.
I want to have more control of what I want to wear and not always feel at the mercy of what fits and sacrifice style.
I want to look good as I get older. I turn 29 in October.
I want more!
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