Since my birthday I have been asking myself if change is possible and what change I would like to see in my life. Change is hard. I think we all know this. As much as we want change and NEED change it takes a lot to get change.
Side note. I am at the car dealership getting my car worked on and in the future I am going to get a loaner and NOT wait. It is really boring. Plus just sitting here waiting for bad news..... Like sitting in a never ending doctor's waiting room.
Ok back to change. I do not want to be anti social holding up in my room watching netflix. So I am saying yes to social things even when I don't feel up to it. I felt convicted about netflix watching one show after another so I canceled it a couple days ago. It is probably better to sleep or read during the times I have been watching gossip girl. I am trying to balance work, social and taking care of myself time. Work is taking a toll. It has been our busiest time of year and it is hard to take time for me or my social life. I have been trying to not let it get me down. I say to myself "try something new" instead of getting mad or stressed I shut my door and pray. I want to do this in all the areas of my life that I am looking for change. In my eating life--instead of walking into the trap of overeating or eating for any reason besides hunger. STOP myself when I start going down that road and say to myself "try something new" eating has not helped in the past why would it help now? Isagenix works if I do it. Along with the shakes, supplements, jazzercise and the 400-600 calorie meals I need to take care of myself with prayer, self reflection, surround myself with people who encourage and uplift me. I have come a long way since my first post July 5th and I want to keep moving forward. People have been noticing and complimenting me on my weight loss so far. I am down 35 (not including my overeating weekend I am up 2). I am wearing pants I didn't fit into before. I want to be under my next goal weight by the new year. Lord renew my strength and resolve to follow the isagenix program and make changes.
Why I want to lose weight:
Kellie's wedding in July. I want to look and feel good. If there are any cute guys there I want to get their attention! I want to dance and not worry about how I look. I want to get a new dress and feel HOT not just feel like "this is the best I can do"
dating life: I wont date until I feel good about myself and I wont feel good about myself until I take care of myself.
Feel and stay young.
Feel girly/sexy
Feel desirable
Feel like I control my life--food does not control me!
My conclusion:
Change is possible. I am doing it now.
